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I think I can understand that dream. Yes, one can be so stressed and only get relief in a dream – quite lucky though. But I’m sure you felt quite relieved. The wish is so intense that it appears in the dream.

I think you need to rest a little. If the pressure is so real and constant, it’s not possible to rest the mind properly. If nothing worked, idk what to say – yes, it’s hard.
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The most confusing problems are the ones that arise from memories, long forgotten, that led to decisions in the subconscious. They are very powerful, and sneaky.

The only way I found to get at them was to get under them to who I was before those memories.

That is available to anyone who chooses to follow the Nichiren method.
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Hi! lots of us have been where you are now. You need to talk to someone, a good friend, a councilor. someone you can unburden your self to . Talking to someone does help , it gets your problems out in the open, not bottled up inside.
You must sort your problems out one by one, not as you are doing all at once. that’s why you only see a high wall you cant clime. Do it bit by bit, clear your mind of all the small things that clutter up your mind so you can tackle the bigger ones.
It ‘s because you think you can’t, you cant. Try to be little bit more positive more in Control,determined and you will feel stronger , You can get all the advice you want all the help you want , but in the end it’s up to you. your future and happiness is your hands. It will not be easy but you can do it if you really want to . Let your son be proud of you , then you can be free. and hold your head up. don’t leave things hoping they will go away , fight and grow again.
I wish you luck and good health.
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Been there.

Wow. I think right now you’re feeling really overwhelmed. So that’s probably why you’re dreaming of a time in your life where you felt safe and free from worry. Too much stress is dangerous and can result in a lot of health problems including high blood pressure. I believe that your son is very proud of you. Children generally don’t focus on how much you give them rather they are grateful for the time you spend with them, the things you sacrifice for them and the memories you make with them. A lot of children don’t have their mother due to death, drugs or imprisonment. So trust me, your son is glad to have you around and appreciates all the wonderful things you’ve done for him despite the fact that money is a problem in your household. Love isn’t based on money, finances, lack of bills or living in comfort. It can take the form of going to his games, helping him with his homework, going to ceremonies where he receives awards, listening to him as he talks about his day or helping him through an issue that he’s struggling with. Your son loves you and I’m sure he’s glad that you’re in his life. Now if you want to take a job at home, there are a few types you can try:

1. Create an internet blog. It’s easy to create. Just go to google’s home page and type in "how to create a blog" and it will show you how to do it. My sister does it and she gets companies to put ads on her site. She was paid quite a bit of money for those ads by the companies who made them. Internet blogs can be about anything. Ex: How to do hair, political issues, ways to save money, etc. Blogs can focus on anything that you’re passionate about and can write a few paragraphs on that someone would be interested in reading.

2. Some companies hire customer service representatives to work from home and handle incoming or outgoing calls.

3. Content writers develop content for websites owned by Internet marketers, business owners, bloggers and other professionals. This content takes the form of articles, electronic books (e-books), online advertisements, online sales letters, email newsletters and blog posts.

4. http://www.foundvalue.com/article/real-jobs-you-can-do-from-home

5. As a child care provider you can stay home & take care of kids who are too young to go to school or older kids after they leave school. You may need to become certified or register with your state and take courses like CPR. You can also teach kids to read, write or help them with homework.

6. As a tutor you can charge between $10 and $18. You can go to an agency like Champion Learning or Academic Advantage or you can do it on your own by posting signs in your area or online.

Don’t say that you have nothing to offer employers. Create a resume and list your skills, talents and gifts. And if you want more, you can take a few months’ training to get a certificate in security, Microsoft Office, etc. There are a LOT of people who would hire you because as a full time mom, you DO have experience in: child care, patience, caring for the sick, cleaning, cooking, typing, keeping a diary (blog), etc.

Other jobs you can try that might allow you to spend time with your son / family at home are: home health aide, receptionist, personal assistant, daycare work, working in a nursing home, computer programming certificate, Quickbooks certificate (accounting on the computer), Tax preparer license or starting your own business. The certificates take around 5 months to get. Good luck and relax, your family’s love isn’t based on how much money you make. They love YOU.
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You must know that the devil is the accuser and if you take the thoughts that come daily into your mind and you do not cast down the those thoughts you will begin to think you are bad or sinful or sick Take 2 Cor 10:5 and use it to remind you that you do not receive all the thoughts that come into your mind they are not yours even though they sound like yours. They are from the devil. You need to know that as a Christian you have authority over your thought life you have authority over the devil and you can make him go by telling him to go in Jesus name.
But now what do you do about the bad thoughts ?You replace them with what the word of God says about us.
Now I will show you what to do and then you need to act on it. Watch what comes out of your mouth.
Do not speak negative things out of your mouth speak only the things that God says about you .
How do you do that?
You find all the faith scriptures and you say them out loud to the devil because he cannot hear them unless you speak them out loud. Do not say you do not have time.
If you have time to speak crap out of your mouth you have time to say nicer things out of your mouth and it will bring a good harvest and all that you ever wanted will come to you because you are obeying the Lord in confessing what He says About you.

Say this out loud:

In the name of Jesus I belong to Jesus Christ. He is the my Lord and Savior. He died on the cross for me and I am His. Greater is He (Jesus) that is in me then he (Satan) that is in the world. Man does not live by bread alone but by every word that proceeds out of the mouth of God. Jesus is the same yesterday. today and forever. God has not given me a spirit of fear,( doubt or worry or temptation ) but of power. love and a sound mind. 2 Timothy 1:7.
In Jesus name I command the those wrong evil& doubtful thoughts to leave my mind. I bring to bear the blood of Jesus against you Satan you cannot fool me anymore about me I am saved and I have eternal life, but you have nothing. If you want to argue go talk to God but I am never listening to your lies again.
I am a child of the most high God and I will not ever again say the things you try to plant in my mind as being the truth. You are liar and the father of lies now Go! Flee! my Jesus protects me from you.
I plead the blood of Jesus around my mind and thoughts. I win! amen

Now you will have to say this many times till you win back the ground you gave over to them devil by believing the lies he told you but know this, the time will come that he will be so afraid of you that one word to those old thoughts will cause him to flee and your peace will be restored.

Philippians 4:8-9 (NIV)
8 Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. 9 Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.

2 Corinthians 10:5 (KJV)
5 Casting down imaginations, and every high thing that exalts itself against the knowledge of God, and bringing into captivity every thought to the obedience of Christ;

Keep the faith and get the faith scriptures memorized for quick results.
http://www.prayingscriptures.com/faithconfessions.shtml
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http://burtpresbyteran.blogspot.com/2009/12/pleading-blood-of-jesus-in-prayer.html
how to plead the blood of Jesus
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Spirit filled Christian

Rethink what you need to do and take one step at a time. Go the other direction…
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